Being Me

'Break'

2012-02-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

erk..rsenye kat Malaysia ni xde musim luruh

..every morning..

..walking towards a place to achieve my dream..

..my eyes will stick to a tree..

..a normal looking tree..

..but with a different color of leaves..

it's nothing really special

just the tree is having its 'fall' season, uniquely..

not like other green trees..

the most eye-catching part is that..

after the season pass..

the tree is greener than others~

^.^

Somebody..

2012-02-18T08:49:00.000+08:00

We're searching for the moon..

The same moon to light up our night..

Its always there, either we can see it or not..

It will show up one day, let's stop looking for it..

Along the way, just hold onto each other..

and walk together even in the dark..

Who knows..

-madihah-

Thinking..

2012-02-02T05:47:00.000+08:00

How challenging it is to study in other country?

It must be really tough, right?

Study kat negara sendiri pun da cukup mencabar..

Tapi lumrah kan..belajar ape2 pun, kat mana2 pun n

sebanyak mana kita minat pun, ada kesusahannya..

I just wonder..

wondering.. whether i can survive

somewhere else alone..

Be my teacher..

2011-12-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

Teach me how to laugh..

Teach me how to cry..

Teach me how to scream..

Teach how to be strong..

Teach me how to survive..

Please, teach me how to live..

I just wanna do thing in my own way..

but it never work out..

Tiba-tiba..

2011-12-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

curi dari blog ct..

ngeh3..

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah:

Err..tiada jawapan utk itu..

2. Saya sedang mendengar:

I'm with you - Avril..

3. Mungkin saya patut:

Mula buat draf laporan PSM..the submission is on

this upcoming Wednesday, n i didn't start yet! haha..

memang nk kne ngan supervisor ni..

4. Saya suka:

Online..blogwalking..tgk gambar2 yg best mcm

amazing art, paper craft etc..n jgk how to make

homemade stuff..^^

5. Sahabat-sahabat baik saya:

Rakan2 sekelas tahun akhir Kimia Industri kat UTM..

n sorang kawan, Hanisah di UTP..die mmg the best

friend ever~

6. Saya tak faham:

Kenapa saya wat mende nie? haha..

7. Saya kehilangan:

Bapa saudara..huhu..

dan telefon bimbit yg comel tu..sob3..

8. Ramai yang berkata:

saya patut buat 'stuff animals' banyak2..

n bagi kat diorang..haha..

9. Makna nama saya:

Saksi yang terpuji..sbb tu sy suka melihat, (kot?)

10. Cinta itu:

Subjektif..skopnya terlalu besar..

Cinta kepada Pencipta, kepada manusia,

kepada alam sekitar dan lain2..

11. Perkara yang paling dibenci:

Tak bleh study or wat kje depan org..huhu..

sgt susah nak buang habit ni..sgt xbagus!

12. Saya akan cuba:

Find things dat I really2 wanna do in the future..

Of course, menjadi lebih rajin n luar biasa~

dan menjadi manusia/hamba yg lebih baik.

hehe..

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud:

tipu! haha..xde ape yg exist forever kecuali

Allah..n apa yg die nak exist forever..

i don't know~ -_-"

14. Telefon Bimbit saya:

Samsung Corby II..tapi da xberfungsi..

(huhu..nnti sy citer..)

skrg gne roomate punye handphone..

Nokia ape ntah..

15. Bila saya bangun dari tidur:

Bukak tingkap~

udara pagi sangat best!

nikmatilah n bersyukur..

16. Saya paling meluat bila:

Beli makanan then makanan tu sebenarnye

dah spoiled..seyes..

17. Pesta/parti adalah:

tempat yang ramai orang..bersesak2..

i'll avoid it, if possible..

18. Orang yg paling comel pernah saya temui:

of course ramai..tp yang paling dekat ialah

sepupu saya, Rayyan~

sangat susah nak snap gambar die..

sbb die suka lari2..

ni gambar latest..knape dapat amik gmbr die?

haha..sbb ni malam, die ske tgk cahaya flash!

siap kejar kamera lagi..haha..

Rayyan sgt comel..

Ada sorg budak yg sgt comel jgk..

tapi xpernah jumpa die secara live..

haha..

of course la xpernah jmpe..sbb die japanese actor.

die berlakon dari kecik, jumpa die dalam citer Aikurushi..

a nice family theme punye drama..hehe..

Sekarang die da besar..

18tahun dah..still berlakon, n da latest..

citer pasal family jugak,kali ni jadi anak sulung..

dalam drama 11 ni mo iru!..

His name is Kamiki Ryunosuke (Google~)

Okay, Next..

19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan:

Mestilah teen years..masa skolah menengah, mula2 masuk

universiti..sangat2 seronok n semua tu da berlalu..

20. Hari ni:

Sorang2 dalam bilik..

Nak wat draf report, study utk test n assgment

yang berderet2 ni..hopefully tercapai matlamat..

kne habiskan cepat ni..

21. Malam ni saya akan:

Tidur..hehe, tapi hanya selepas semua kerja

selesai or sampai tahap yg memuaskan..

22. Esok pula saya akan:

Masuk lab..tunjuk draf kat senior..

Usha bacteria saya, hopefully xcontaminated..

klu semuanya ok, kne proceed centrifuge etc..

n kne mintak methanol dari lab lain..huhu..

23. Saya betul2 inginkan:

tahap keyakinan dan ketabahan yang tinggi..

untuk mengahadapi masa depan yg lebih m'cabar!

haha..berkobar2..

24. Ketika anda lihat wajah anda dihadapan cermin pagi ini:

Wah..saya nampak hebat! hehe..

semalam cukup tido setelah m'jalani minggu yg meletihkn..

25. Pusat m'beli-belah atau arked permainan:

Dua2 pun best..tp prefer shopping mall

coz klu kluar duit main game, xnmpak hasil die..

hehe..perempuan2..

26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun:

Dua2 pun boleh..i just love food~ ^_^

tapi makanan yg betul2 best n bleh wat kita

btul2 kenyang mestilah makanan Malaysia sendiri..

sehari xmakan nasi, xbleh tido..

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap:

mestilah terang..baru rasa bleh bernafas..

bukak tingkap seluas-luasnya..

28. Makanan segera adalah:

No-no..xbaik untuk kesihatan..

tapi itulah yg disukai..hehe..

29. Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang:

Malam semalam..cakap ape ea? "Waalaikumussalam.."

sbb pagi ni dok kat bilik je sorang2 so belum bersuara..

30. Siapa yang anda nak tag:

At last..siapa2 yg baca nak buat, silakan..

saya hepi utk baca..=)

p/s: Jom start wat kje..
haha..sgt banyak soalan rupenya..

15 Disember 2011

2011-12-15T00:53:00.001+08:00

Berusaha menjadi insan tabah..

menerima ketentuan-Nya seadanya..

kerana Dia lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik..

Tiada lafaz yang mampu diucapkan..

hanya dengusan nafas dalam menjadi teman..

apa lagi yang boleh dilakukan untuk membuktikan

yang anda lebih tabah dari yang disangka..

Namun lumrah..

Sekuat mana anda, ada lemahnya..

kesedihan itu tak dapat disembunyikan..

walaupun dengan ketawa, walaupun dengan cerita yg berbeza.

Malam ini tidak seperti biasa..

dihiasi musik2 yang menemani kerja2..

Malam ini....sunyi lebih indah, sangat indah..

Aku berusaha untuk tidak mengalirkan air mata..

Tapi, andai itu yang dapat membuat aku menerima

hakikat sebenarnya..izinkan aku menangis..

"Selagi saya mampu, saya akan bertahan.."

Gembira pasangannya Sedih

2011-12-14T23:32:00.001+08:00

Google it~

Setelah sekian lama nak makan ni..

Akhirnya hari ni dpt makan..

PISANG KAKI~

Alhamdulillah..

p/s: kehilangan seorg bapa saudara yg selalu

kaitkan petai untuk anak saudara die ni..

semoga Ayah Cik berada dikalangan org2 mukmin..

Al-Fatihah..

Cabaran menjadi 20..

2011-12-11T11:32:00.001+08:00

Tarikh yang dinanti setiap tahun..

28 November, why?? Its my birthday..

Seronok! bile ramai kawan2 lama hntr mesej dan wish..

waktu 2 jugaklah bley amek kesempatan utk sembang2 panjang..

kadang2 kawan yang xpernah cakap kat sekolah dulu

pun bley bawak sembang macam2..mmg best~

Somehow, this year..i've mixed feelings..

Haha..there's no more teen years..

Minggu2 nak sampai ke tarikh t'sebut amatlah mencabar..

Seolah2 nak sy sedar yang sy benar2 perlu 'membesar'..

This year, again..

I got opportunity to celebrate my birthday at home..

even with additional family members! hehe..

Abg Budi, my brother-in-law..^^

Actually..

one whole family didn't remember my birthday..

they've been busy with kaklong's wedding

but seriously, i understand that..

bcoz me myself nearly forget about that..haha

Early in the morning, got a bad news..

Picu, ikan yg ktorg bela mati..huhu..

kemungkinan besar sbb air akuarium tu..

xtau apa masalah die..apa2 pun,

Kaloi selamat!

Alhamdulillah, super happy~

my parent bought me a new phone..

Samsung Corby II, Candy pink in color..

Together with a cute phonechain n stickers..

BUT

sebelum menjamah makanan2 yang lazat..

sy bersiap-siap dulu utk balik UTM..

tiba2 terkurung dalam toilet, pintu xbleh bukak..

nasib baik toilet ada 2 pintu..berjaya keluar

tapi pintu bilik pun kunci..so, xdapat nak masuk bilik..

misi membuka pintu bermula!

Yg bju merah tu, Ibu..sorg lg tu adik bongsu sy, Aiman..
sebok je die..= P

Macam2 cara gune..

tapi xberjaya..

xpelah makan dulu ea~

KFC punye egg tart yg yummy~

Sambil2 makan..

sembang pasal malam ktorg tido kt Bukit Melawati..

waktu kecik2 dulu, sgt scary~ haha..

pastu cerita2 pasal zaman kanak2..

sgt best! sy suka masa2 sy bersama keluarga~

ni yg paling sedap! hehe..

After makan barulah abah kopak pintu

toilet tu..^_^

Okay, this year i got a gift from a mysterious person..

adoyaii, siapakah anda??

See, first day jadi 20 tahun pun da mcm2 jadi..

Hehe..pengalaman yang sangat2 berharga..

Overflowing happiness that cannot be described!

Thanks ibu ngan abah..

Thanks kaklong n abg budi..

semua2 lah..

Tote Boutique Giveaway~!!

2011-12-06T17:59:00.001+08:00

I'm joining Tote Boutique Giveaway~

Let's take a look..

Interested??

click the banner..

Spend time to usha blog Tote Boutique ni tau!

nothing to lose..

Eighty-five

2011-11-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

The path that we used to walk,

already full with dry leaves..

The night air saturated with our flying words,

have turn into an empty box..

The light heart-warming atmosphere,

are no longer exist..

Did you even realize that i've change ?

i might forget about you..

or one day everyone will forget me..

i just miss everything about us..

I'm scared of being a 'lost friend' .

END

Yui - Goodbye days (Translation Lyrics)

2011-11-22T16:26:00.001+08:00

So I'm going to see you right now,

that's what I've decided

I want to have you listen to this song,

that I have in my pocket

Quietly..

I turned up the volume,

to make sure that it was there.

Oh good-bye days,

right now I've got the feelings that things are going to change,

so long to everything up until yesterday

An uncool kindness is at my side

~With you

I pass one ear phone over to you

And this moment slowly streams over to you

Can you really love me?

Even though I sometimes lose my way.

Oh good-bye days,

right now things inside my heart have begun to change,

alright; An uncool kindness is at my side

~With you

If possible, I'd like to not have sad feelings

But they'll come to me, won't they?

In those times, it would be good if only I could say

"Yeah, hello! My friend", with a smile

When we both are humming the same song,

I wish for you to be by my side,

I'm glad that we were able to meet each other,

with such an uncool kindness

...Good-bye days

p/s: hmm..it seems like the lyrics kinda suits my situation now.

Worst!

2011-11-13T14:14:00.001+08:00

Thousands of ideas come to my mind..
Feel like writing but don't have chance..
Feel like sharing but don't know how..

Everything is a lie..
I'm just lazy..

Kegembiraan Berganda..

2011-10-26T11:09:00.001+08:00

Morning!

Yaa..it's holiday~

more importantly, it's on Wednesday..

Wednesday..is a PSM's day..

PSM stands for Projek Sarjana Muda

it's like final year project 4 final year students..

n on that day, my biotech friends n I have to 'work'

in biotech lab from 8 to 5 (if we're lucky enough)..

or 6pm or till night, perhaps..

obviously, it's tiring and stressful..

But it's understandable..

that those rule is for our own benefits..

so we can finish our project earlier,

less stress in the next semester

and graduate happily..with a nice grade,

bcoz we have ample of time to improve

our project, prepare for presentation

and write our final report..

So today, eventhough it's holiday..

still going to the lab but just for few hours..

maybe few minutes..hehe..

Short Note..

2011-10-23T12:16:00.001+08:00

Being a child is fun..

But having a childish mind when u're

nearly twenty is burdensome..

Komik Gempak Starz..

2011-10-22T00:41:00.001+08:00

komik..komik..komik..

Successfully reduced my money..

huhu..beli komik!! 2 plak tu..

Actually, not really feel like buying..

coz still waiting for Maid Maiden Friday..

tapi bila abg tu cakap klu beli 2 dapat

free comic holder..(comic holder ke??)

n ada gambar Maid Maiden..

memanglah nak..hehe..

So, I bought these..

Lawak Pop Gang..

n Ice Cream Baby..

Happy dapat gambar abg kacak ni..

xsabar nak susun komik..

tapi komik byk kat umah dah..

pandangan kiri..

pandangan kanan..

ouh..kanak2 nye saya~

p/s: ngantuk, esok g kilang kelapa sawit..lawatan industri

untuk subjek Environmental Chemistry..

10.10.11

2011-10-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

A best friend's birthday..

her 20th birthday..

On that day, its exactly 2 years n 9 months

of our life in this university..

approximately that long of our friendship too..

knowing her as my neighbor, up to being a roommate..

always being generous by giving me a lot of food..

you're the playful one..

Spending time with all of you..

Fyfa, Bee, Trah n Farah..

among thousands fond memories of my life..

It's always nice and heart warming..

beautifully arranged banana split..

monster2..menyerang!!!

mission accomplished..hehe..

Honestly, i'm totally annoyed..

wake me up from my soundless sleep..

but i'm glad, after all..to wake up..

n be a part of the celebration..

I've nothing to give you..

not a billionaire to throw a high class party..

not a lecturer to give you higher marks..

not a singer to sing you a song..also

not a boyfriend to buy you a bear..

I'm just a friend..

someone wishing to be a good one..

Worried..

2011-10-16T06:34:00.000+08:00

There's still a looong way in front..

I don't know how to face it..

Practical Diary - Fellow Colleagues

2011-10-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

Last few months,

my journey as practical student in Malaysian Nuclear Agency ends..

but the memories..remains .

I'm the silent one..

Following them wherever they go..

Mereka ni..geng gile2 kt sana..

ramai kn..kn2..

They're super sporting, happening n nice..

eventhough we're from different universities, different ages..

At least, we can cope to each other..

Gambar2 ni..bkn time hari last saya kt Nuklear nie..

tapi ni ala2 goodbye party utk 3 orang kawan dari UMT

yang habis praktikal awal..8minggu je praktikal diorg..

Ni..diorg dari UMT..

Ramai2 berkumpul kt Taman Tasik Cempaka..

exactly right after work..haha..

enjoying our Domino's time..yeeha~

duduk dlm bulatan besar n slide2 pizza..

6 kotak pizza yg yummy~

yg pgg videocam tu, saya!

Its so hard to say goodbye..

Ok, die xnangis pun semenanye..saje je tu..

Goodbye speech punye session..b4 makan..

xketinggalan, sesi bergambar!

especially bile ada kamera besar..hehe..

laki2..

pompuan..

Antara rmai2 ni, 2 orang je yg satu lab ngan saya..

satu sv..yg 3 n 4 dari kiri, Ieka n Su..

diorang ni da graduate! Cume Su lom Konvo..

Mcm mne bleh ramai sgt kn?

Slalu je ktorg konvoi at least 3 kereta g makan n jalan2..

Pernah paling byk smpai 6 kereta klu xsilap..

Xtau mula dari mna, tapi dari kawan satu U..ke kawan satu lab..

ajak2 makan same, jumpe..then jadi kawan..

slalu konvoi2 sampai baik2 cmni..

Walaupun saya kurang berkata apa2..

Or just mcm nyendeng je kt diorg..

Saya sgt happy ^_^

Memang best, gembira kenal mereka~

p/s: Smoga semua berjaya dialam pekerjaan

dan jumpa lagi..

Just because of you..

2011-10-10T14:23:00.005+08:00

I never wish 2 grow up fast..

I never thought dat growing up can be this tough..

But I'm okay..yes, I'm okay..

You're da one who teach me to be this strong..

Therefore, I believe..you're stronger..

Sorry for unable to be by ur side when u need me..

I promise.. even tough i'm not there..

I'll study hard here..I'll call u often..

I'll always pray for you..

..Love u FOREVER..

Ya Allah..berilah kekuatan buat dirinya..

Gembira

2011-10-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

Seronoknye bila ada org care pasal kita..

Bahagia..bahagia..bahagia..cam nk terbang rsenye..

mungkin sbb tu orang memilih untuk memiliki pasangan..

tapi bagi saya..xpelah..

saya xperlukannya..

selagi masanya belum datang..

InsyaAllah, saya sentiasa ada Dia..

kita sentiasa ada Dia..Dia yang sentiasa memerhatikan..

Dia lebih tahu apa yang terbaik buat kita..

..Allah knows best..

Giveaway Souvenir dari Jepun dan Korea

2011-09-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

Yay..another giveaway~

Kali ni pemenang ditentukan melalui cabutan bertuah..

Jom tengok bertuah x..

Tarikh tutup 22 September 2011

haha..memanglah saya suka wat kje last minute..

New Blogger Interface!!!

2011-09-16T20:47:00.004+08:00

Haha..nak post mende lain smenanye..

Bukak2 tetibe lain macam je..

Interface baru~ suddenly berubah cmtu, bley tahan terkejut!

Xpela, try explore..tp, xde mood r..

IS - Neither Male nor Female..

2011-08-23T11:39:00.005+08:00

IS - Otoko demo Onna demo Nai Sei

"IS" stands for "intersexual".

Its a term referring to people who

cannot clearly be classified as male or female,

and who may biologically possess characteristics of both sexes.

This drama (based on manga) is about

Hoshino Haru, an IS who was registered as a girl at birth

but has been raised as a boy..

Because of some circumstances, Haru's teen years

must now be raised as a girl..

This drama is currently airing..

I've watched the first 4 episodes..

and it's Interesting!!

I think 'somewhere' in the drama may

make viewers cry..

This drama remind me of 1 Litre of Tears..

They're people who born to be different,

yet need to continue living..

Be glad with everything..

Alhamdulillah~

"Kdg2 syami lari..kdg2 syami jln..klu penat syami berhenti.."

2011-08-18T21:44:00.006+08:00

Seperti pagi hari2 biasa, kelihatan dua adik-beradik itu masuk kedalam

van yang akan membawa mereka ke destinasi yang berbeza..

Setibanya disuatu tempat, si kakak diturunkan..rakan2 lain yang menaiki

van yang sama turut turun di destinasi tertentu..

Pemandu van pulang ke rumah. Tugasnya untuk menghantar anak2 itu

ke sekolah masing2 selesai..Ayuh berehat..

*****

"Mama..mama, syami ni.." si ibu yang sedang berehat terkesima.

"Eh, syahmi xgi sekolah ke?".. Segera si ibu menghubungi pihak sekolah

untuk mendapatkan kepastian. Ternyata kanak2 berumur 4 tahun itu

tidak menjejakkan kakinya ke sekolah pada pagi tadi.

Gagang telefon diangkat lagi lalu nombor pemandu van di dail..

"X turunkan syahmi kat skolah dia ke hari ni?"

"Dah..xada siapa dah dalam van td.." jawab pemandu van, yakin.

"Syahmi..cmne syahmi bleh balik rumah ni?". Musykil!

*****

"Syami sedar2 dalam van dah xde org..syami keluar la dari van tu.."

"Kadang-kadang syami lari..kadang-kadang syami jalan, kalau syami penat,

syami berhenti.." petah kanak2 itu berbicara..

"Habis tu..cne syahmi lintas jalan?" si ibu masih curiga..

"Kalau ada kereta, syami jalan tepi2..kalau xda, lari cepat2.."

*****

Kanak2 yg masih pelat itu berada dalam pelukan ibunya..

MasyaAllah..bukan dekat jarak rumah pemandu van itu ke rumah mereka..

Syukur si ibu tidak bekerja shif pagi dan berada di rumah ketika itu..

Si ibu hanya mampu menangis..Syahmi turut menangis..

Dia kelihatan sungguh tabah mencari jalan pulang dan bercerita

dengan begitu baik, jauh disudut hati kecilnya..siapa tahu betapa takutnya

kanak2 sebesar itu ditinggalkan sendirian. Mencari jalan pulang di tengah2

taman perumahan Seksyen 20, Shah Alam..

*****

Pemandu van menghubungi si ibu..

"Saya turun dari rumah, tengok pintu van terbuka..."

syahmi..

p/s: susah nk percaya! Alhamdulillah, Syahmi selamat..

Edcoustic - Muhasabah Cinta

2011-08-10T09:13:00.004+08:00

Wahai..Pemilik nyawaku..

Betapa lemah diriku ini..

Berat ujian dari-Mu..

Ku pasrahkan semua pada-Mu..

Tuhan..baruku sedar..

Indah, nikmat sihat itu..

Tak pandai aku bersyukur..

Kini ku harapkan cinta-Mu..

Kata-kata cinta terucap indah..

Mengalir berzikir dikidung doaku..

Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku..

Butir-butir cinta air mataku..

Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku..

Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini,

Ya Illahi..

Muhasabah cintaku..

Tuhan..kuatkan aku..

Lindungiku dari putus asa..

Jika kuharus mati..

Pertemukan aku dengan-Mu..

I'm a stalker..

2011-08-08T08:29:00.007+08:00

When u're alone..

beware, look around urself..

someone might stalk you!

and that 'someone' might be me~

take ur time to 'explore' n 'search'..

cz 4 some pictures, its kinda 'whattta'..

just few pictures of dragonflies and friends..

somehow love to see them in detail..

p/s: haha..my photographic skills mmg hampas..

Nothing is Perfect..

2011-08-07T13:14:00.005+08:00

Semakin kita dewasa, semakin banyak kekurangan ibubapa kita

yang kita jumpa..tidak mengapa kerana tiada manusia yg sempurna..

Disitulah letaknya tanggungjawab kita; sebagai anak untuk melengkapkan

mereka kerana sewaktu kita masih kecil, merekalah yang membuatkan

kita sentiasa rasa SEMPURNA~

Iman..anak sepupu yg pertama..makcik da sy~

Rayyan..sepupu yg comel~ xreti dok diam..

xdpt nak amik gmbr die elok2, asyik lari2 je..^_^

p/s: sronok tgk kanak-kanak b'gembira~

... .

2011-07-29T10:21:00.002+08:00

a lonely heart need an attention..

running around creating chaos..

struggling to understand peoples mind..

distinguishing between pride and chance..

Breathe..

2011-07-05T21:22:00.005+08:00

"It's 2am, feelin' like I just lost a friend..

Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me..

It's 2am, feelin' like I just lost a friend..

Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me..

And we know it's never simple, never easy..

Never a clean break, no one here to save me......"

gambar hiasan..hiasan ke??

Practical Diary - Pictures

2011-06-23T11:18:00.008+08:00

Let pictures do the talking..

p/s: not all mine..

Practical Diary - Week 4 n 5

2011-06-23T10:00:00.006+08:00

In research, passion and patience is a must!
Along this journey, i've realize that they must come together..
w/o both or even one of it..ur research won't work..
but it's not easy to have both..or maintain it..

Week 1 - Passion
Week 2 - Passion n Patience
Week 3 - Passion n Patience
Week 4 - Patience
Week 5 - None of them

Day by day..
my passion towards my project decline..
same goes to my patience..huhu.

I dream of a chance for site-work..
sitting in front of ur laptop everyday..
reading n searching..left inside the lab alone..
Doing the same things again n again..
No excitement at all..

Already started with my slide..
A tiny preparation for presentation..
bcoz of the presentation, i don't feel like finishing my
industrial training..but i can't run away 4 sure~

p/s: I wonder how am i going to be a researcher..

Mimpi..

2011-06-18T10:33:00.003+08:00

Tiada kenderaan untuk pulang..menunggu..

bertemankan sebuah tas tangan..

seorang lelaki merampas tas tersebut..

menyerahkannya kepada pemandu yg tidak tahu apa2..

Aku, mengambilnya kembali..

ia hak aku! Tolong, jgn lakukannya lagi..

Masih disitu..menunggu..

seorang lagi lelaki lain merampas tas dari tanganku..

Berlari..sempat mendapatkannya semula..

Tolong, jangan lakukannya lagi..

"Aku bapa kepada 7org anak dan 6org isteri..kau xakan faham!"

Terdiam..kaku..

Tunggu! walau apapun..jangan!

Aku takut...

Practical Diary - Week 2 n 3

2011-05-21T00:22:00.004+08:00

Look at the title..

huhu, obviously i'm getting lazy..

plus, not much to tell each day..

Hmm..what am i doing all this while..

menyepi 2minggu lebih dah..

Ok, back to business..

During those weeks, i've started my experiment..

few trials on making a product..what product??

a vanilla-based product..

4 now, that's da only thing i can tell about my project..

On da same time,

i'm searching on the test for the product and others..

i spend a lot of time online searching for journals and articles

The most tiring part is to clean all those apparatus and

instrument used for the experiment..huhu..

Sometimes, i spend half day just for the cleaning part!!

The laboratory that i use is full with instrument

HPLC, GC, mini UVspec and others

still didn't get a chance to use those..

Actually, i experiencing my industrial training

at a agrotech and bioscience department..

what to expect, lots of biology students there..

of course..doing something related to biology..

deal with microbes and stuff..

So, what actually my labmates and i doing there??

We ( 4 chemistry students ),

staying inside an instrument lab..

doing our own project, slightly related to biology..

huhu..it's not easy to do something that not

in your field of study..

especially for polymer students to do culturing stuff!

For me, i'm not doing something too hard..

it's not too biology but it still not too chemistry..

i mean, i'm doing something not really related to my study..

Anyway, at some stage..i still enjoy my project..

Practical Diary - Day 4

2011-05-21T00:02:00.003+08:00

Met my supervisor 4 da first time..

She's friendly but a strict person..

Still searching 4 journals..

At last, it's weekend..

Let's rest..

p/s: looking at those squirrels n smiling alone..

'look at them quarrel n crying alone'

Practical Diary - Day 2 n 3

2011-05-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

Gotong-royong kenduri kawin paman..

on 17th..penat tp seronok!

*****

Day 2

sampai lewat..huhu..

dpt tugasan dr supervisor..

Day 3

not in a good condition..

went to mini library..

p/s: going 2 meet my sv tmorrow..

super-nervous~

Practical Diary - Day 1

2011-05-16T19:00:00.004+08:00

Berjaya dah m'harungi hari pertama,,

hehe..macam2 citer dgr dr kawan2 lain..

ade yg best, ade yg sedikit bosan dll..

me??

not bad..

but my supervisor is on leave..

kinda boring..

but i met lots of new friends..

there's time

i thought dat i'm not belong 2 this field..

this is really not me..

then, on da way back home..

abah gave an advice, something 2 lift my

spirit on starting my very own research..

he make me realize how interesting

a research is..

knowledge in science is a wonder~~

p/s: there's a looooong more way to go..

Practical Diary - Prediary

2011-05-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

Huhu..

Tomorrow is 16th May..

I've always waiting 4 this date every single year..

The day when i'll express my gratitude towards

my teacher's and my lovely mother..

(i'm always glad, dat day just a day 2 express it..hehe, time 2 je brani nk luahkn)

But this year, it's gonna be different..

Yes, it's different..it's not dat i'll change my annual routine,

it's just..i think more about my industrial training..

my coursemates n i is gonna start our practical

tomorrow..(some of them on 18th)..

Okay, honestly..i'm super-nervous..

not enough..super-ultra-hyper nervous..

hmm..but just act cool 2 reduce it..

seriously no idea how tomorrow looks like..

how this 2months will be..

To all my friends..

All da best!! Ganbarimasyou~

p/s: biggest wonder - what bag should i bring??

n what should i put inside??

Things You Didn't Know About Sleep..probably.

2011-05-03T16:56:00.006+08:00

1. We can only dream about faces we have already seen,

whether we actively remember them or not!

2. Dreaming is normal. People who do not dream
generally have personality disorders.

3. Sleep positions may determine ur personality..

[Google~]

4. Longest sleeping mammals is koalas: 22 hours a day
n shortest sleeping mammals is giraffes: 1.9 hours a day
(in 5-10minutes sessions)

5. When dolphins sleep, only half of their brain shuts down.
The other half stays awake to help with breathing cycles.

6. Blind people can still see images in dreams.
(Born blind are exceptional)

7. Within 5 minutes of waking up, 50% of your dream is
forgotten. Within 10 minutes, 90% is gone..

p/s: xtau btol x..yg best no. 4! Time xm2 nie..
mesti rmai yg berubah m'jadi zirafah kan??

[Google~] Comelkn sy??

Kita x same..

2011-05-03T15:22:00.002+08:00

Hmm..time jawab paper Analytical Chem ari 2..
bru sy sedar yg cara org jawab soaln subjktif ni b'beza2..
sebelum ni xpernah terfikir pun..
Ceritanya cmni..

Tengah serabut2 xdpt jawab, sy pun melilau2..
sy tgk xramai pun mintak xtra paper..t'tnye2
"mesti dpt jwb bykkn?? sbb xtinggal page kosong pun"
sy b'fikirn cm2 sbb sy slaluu tinggalkn tmpt kosong klu xdpt jwb.
sy xkan t'lepas dari jadi golongan yg minta xtra paper..
haha..m'bazir, tinggal gap byk2 pastu xdpt jwb gak..

Pastu baru sy sedar function bhagi soaln ikut masa..
cthnya: Paper tu 2jam, ada 4soalan..so, satu soalan 30min..
Mesti siapkn soalan tu dalam 30min jgk supaya xkco soalan lain..
klu dapat siap awal 2 advantage la kn..

Cikgu slaloo cakap, klu xdapat jwb skip soalan dlu..
So smpai ke skrg, sy cmtulah..dr page 1 smpai ke hujung..
klu xtau jwab...sy tgglkn ruang kosong, mne xbyk mkn ruang..
skrg sy da tau..tgglkn soalan 2 cmne..
Soalan kn ada anak cucu kn..so klu xdpat jwb, trun dlu..
then try solve..klu da nk smpai 30min xsettle2 gak..
atau soalan 2 mmg kritikal xtau lansung (hopeless n helpless) bru proceed..
bknnye xdapat jwb tros g soaln lain..klu cm2, skjp je da smpai soaln last..
haha..apelah..

Btol ke ape yg sy pk nih?
Paper bru ni wat cm2 rse cm okay la jugak..
Kamu2 jwab cmne ea??

p/s: patut ke sy pk bende ni?..klu x, biarlah sy merapu sorg2..

First Stage of my final xm..

2011-04-30T10:32:00.003+08:00

This semester (nearly) was amazing..
It's kinda different with other semesters..
Gotta think about industrial training n PSM..
Hope everything is gonna be fine n fun..

My coursemate n I; experienced the most unique study week..
study week without a single day without dateline..
assignment, presentation, quiz and even test!!
We should consider all of those as a part of our revision..
so, it won't be a burden, right??

Till today, we've successfully finish 4 papers..
Super-amazing!! We got 3 papers in a row!
I'm glad dat not all of it is a tough paper..
Okay, i believe next 2 semester is going 2 be 'something' too..

Today is my uncle's wedding..in Kuantan.
I didn't manage to go cz there's many things to do here..
packing, retuning stuff and da most important is STUDY!!
very dissapointing isn't it? It's okay, I will attend the other one..
Sorry paman~ sdeynye xdapat jmpe sepupu2..
Rinduuuuuu~~

That's all 4 today, perhaps..
really need 2 study so i won't regret 2 be here instead of kuantan..
Looking 4ward 2 see the weird me (hardworking madihah)!!
Can i??

p/s: Hmm..sy dah besar~

Believe me..

2011-04-26T23:03:00.007+08:00

Dear Friend,

You have a very beautiful life. You were born in a very nice family,
having so much nice friends and people around you...Be strong, girl.
There's nothing wrong with finding the real you along the way.
You're creating the own you that no one can interfere with.
You decide on everything.
Never forget that there are always be someone behind you.
Supporting you, watching you and praying for you.
Along the journey, please...never forget Allah n others.
Stop thinking just about yourself. You definitely can manage it because you really can.
Sometimes, there's no need to reach others expectation on you...
just strive 4 what you think and you know the best for you and everyone.

..^_^..

Kawan vs Sahabat

2011-04-22T20:21:00.003+08:00

Kawan datang n pergi..
Sahabat datang, tak mau pergi2 dah..
hehe..

Sahabat yang baik ialah dengan mengingatinya..
kita akan mengingati Allah..

sy memiliki sahabat seperti itu..alhamdulillah.
n berharap mampu menjadi seperti itu suatu hari nnti..

Don't Quit...

2011-04-17T18:01:00.000+08:00

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, If you must but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up through the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tints of clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

p/s: Gotta do our best in final xm..
Ganbarimasyou~

Super-stress

2011-04-10T14:00:00.006+08:00

Abah send a message..

suddenly, my tears flow..

It's normal..
n happened again n again..
each n everytime the end of semester is coming..

When final examination getting near..
When lots of presentation waiting in front..
When assignments dateline just around da corner..

That's when my room getting messier..
That's when ironing, washing become a hobby..
That's when my sleeping n eating schedule getting upside down..

The weird me --> weirder..
Okay, i'm not weird..i'm just unique..=p

Langkah Tercipta by UNIC

2011-04-10T13:34:00.002+08:00

Semalam aku kelukaan,
kecewa kehampaan,
mencalar ketabahan,
Mimpi yang sering kuharapkan menjadi kenyataan,
namun xkesampaian.

Allah..
ingin kuhentikan langkah ini,
bagaikn xmampu untuk kubertahan,
semangat tenggelam lemah daya,
haruskah aku mengelamun jiwa,
ku berbisik inilah dugaan..

dan mataku kini terbuka,
pada hikmah dugaan uji keimanan
dan dilontarknnya ujian diluar kekuatan setiap diri insan

Allah..pimpinlah diriku,
untuk bangkit semula meneruskan langkah perjuangan ini
cekalkan hati semangatku, kurniakan ketabahan
agar mimpi jadi nyata, padaMu ku meminta..

daku mohon agung kudratMu
wahai tuhan yang satu
segalanya dariMu.

p/s: yosshh!! Berusahalah!!

Innocence

2011-04-04T23:52:00.004+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cus I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

..GROW..

2011-03-24T01:45:00.002+08:00

" GROW your knowledge,
READ! "
-mph-

" USE your knowledge,
GROW! "
-suka2 hati-

Kisah MASA '10 n '11...

2011-03-19T01:23:00.003+08:00

KTF's annual dinner..
MASA (Malam Anugerah Srikandi) 2010
was held on 22 February wif arabian nite theme..
"Night at the Oasis"

mereka n kaktus atas meja..

Me, as ketua 'unit persiapn tmpt'..
spend a lot of time wondering about how 2 decorate DSI
(Dewan Sultan Iskandar)..a big UTM hall..
i never decorate such a huge things before..
i'm very blur about what 2 do from da beginning till da very end..
i'm glad dat my friends n 'ajk's help me..thx guys..
in my opinion, about my job overall was very unstatisfying..
i don't know what actually i've done..haha..
things i like most was 'bintang2 yg b'gntgn kt blah atas 2'
its cute and kinda attractive..da process 2 make it there
was very fussy..again, super-thx 4 those who help..

bintang2..i like~

Gmbr kaktus yg tirah wt kt luar pown amazing..i like it..
tq gk kt kak siti n sal yg hias grbg ngan tangga..sgt comel..
kwn2 lain yg tlg wt backdrop + kain kt pentas..
tolong angkt + susun meja n kerusi dan dll..
trime kasih yg x t'hingga, klu xde korg mmg xsiap r dwn 2..

but a bit disappointed when i didn't gave my best..
i kept worrying t0ooo much..
at last, i've waste a lot of time..n have 2 do
last minute preparation which make my some of my friends n I
don't sleep 4 one night..
not just dat..da backdrop also seems very bad..
da size n during da dinner, some of da alphabet felt..
huhu..shame on me..
but it's okay coz i learn something..

4 da dinner overall, not bad..
i love almost all of da performance..hehe..
especially IMRAN AJMAIN, GULA2 KAPAS PUTIH n
VOICE OF MEN..
other than dat, it's nice 2 see how KTFs stdnt
excited 2 get cactus as gift..brilliant idea..
a bit sad coz xsmpt tgkp gmbr ngan
hiasn2 p'siapn tmpt..
n xdpt cactus pun..

can't wait till da next MASA..hehe..^_^
(this post was written on 3rd March 2010, huhu..)
******

Here we are again..
MASA 2011..18th March 2011..
It's a Masquerade Party!!

Did i wear a mask??
huhu..of cos not! I'm wearing my 'kaca mata' instead..
much2 more confortable..hehe, xdelah..xsempat nk cri sbnrnye..
ada t'lintas nk wt sendiri tp cm malas..huhu..
best tgk diorg punya mask, macam2..

They served chicken chop..
I love the pudding n the drinks..
not to forget the balloons..
Performance?? Nice!
everything was nicely neat n simple..
good job guys..sorry 4 not helping..huhu..

Overall..i enjoy the night..
It's refreshing..to be able to laugh n smile..
Thank you so much 4 inviting..
I feel like going to a reunion..
Flashing back all of our memories..back in our JKM's life..
with all my JKM's friends, Pn K n Dr anizu..
I'm glad i chose to attend..^_^

p/s: tired..

The Super-Lazy Chef..

2011-03-05T17:46:00.005+08:00

1. Prepare all of the instrument needed..

2. Give instructions..

3. Walaa!! U'll get ur dishes ready..

All I hv to do is..sit n 'kacau2'..=p

p/s: Chicken Soup , Cucur + Spaghetti..

Sweet Dream n Happiness...

2011-03-04T08:40:00.003+08:00

I wonder..
does sweet dreams bring us happiness??
huhu..I can't feel it..

Last night, I dreamed of them..again..
n 4 da second time too, I'm not happy..
I miss them too much i guess..
super-rindu!!

hmm..
there's nothing I can do..
Scared to hope for the dream to stop..
but sad enough when the dream comes..

Diamku mengatasi segalanya..

2011-03-01T06:04:00.002+08:00

Jam 5.53 pagi..
aku t'jaga..sah aku b'mimpi..
aku mimpikan mereka..
aku pasti..

Mimpi itu teramat jelas, teratur..
seolah-olah ia benar-benar berlaku..
aku terlalu merindui mereka..

Mereka bukan jauh diperantauan,
mereka didepan mata..
Mereka bukan tak mampu dicari,
mereka ada disini..

Namun, aku pilih diam...
.....

p/s: xmahu tidur semula, takut t'mimpi lagi..
sungguh, aku takut akn mimpi itu..meskipun ia mimpi indah.
haruskah aku b'suara? aku tidak berani~

Industrial Training...part 3

2011-02-26T09:21:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah..
Huh..at last, i got it!!

To my coursemates..
whom still struggling to get place 4 LI..
Ganbatte ne!! Don't give-up..

*****
This last 2 weeks..
was a challenging weeks 4 my mind n heart..
nothing goes right..n it seems the same 4 others too..
Everyone hv problems with their phone, relationship
n problems with some services..what a pain..

Kwn sy kne marah..
dia minta tlg, elok2..tp dimarahi..
xlogikkn?? bukan minta tlg apa pun..
sekurang-kurangnya, terangknlah baik2..
dahla org tgh dalam keadaan xstabil..
huhu..sdey tol..

Let's learn sumthing from it..
Hopefully, we won't be one of them..

Shiori~

2011-02-23T13:42:00.013+08:00

I ignored what everyone said..

what they said about my phone..
Eventhough i already realize dat,
i can't rely on it anymore..

Sbb degil sgt..
ckp ibu pun xnk dgr..huhu..
Allah nk tunjuk..

Nokia 2360 tlah 'selamat'..
menyelam kedalam dunia yg xdisangka ia akn pergi..
mengikuti jejak langkah senior2 t'dahulu..huhu..
nombor rakan2 juga tlah selamat berenang2 meninggalknku~
Anyway, ada hikmahnya..dia da b'khidmat hmpir 4thn..

*****

I got new phone!
Sony Ericsson Spiro W100i..
pink color!

call her shi-chan (Shiori)..

[google image] matching..huhu..

p/s: ketandusan fulus..$_$

hp-kun no kenko..

2011-02-14T15:09:00.005+08:00

To be healthy..it's a pleasure..

Alhamdulillah~
でも, tokidoki..we will fall ill..
scientifically, coz there's sumting wrong wif our body..
medically, it will help to increase immunity..perhaps..
spiritually, it's a test from Allah 4 us to face..

Lately, byk plak kwn2 + sedara-mara xsihat..
Kawan2, jaga kesihatan baik2 ye~
Minum air masak banyak2 tp jgn minum byk2
dlm satu masa tau! cz ada side effectnye..
Contohnye, minumlah setiap sejam ke, stgh jam ke..
Jgn plak skali minum, abeskn satu botol..9t ada
'intoxin..blabla' ape ntah..tkut2 sakit lain plak lps 2..

Kpd abg Amy..dia xcident sblm CNY ari 2..
kne langgar lori..hip dia da mislocate klu xsilap..
Kaki bley pusing2..bgn pagi2 tgk kaki da arah lain..
Scary kan?? da b'minggu2 da tp lom wt operation..

Cian kt Kak Jannah, Iman ngan Irfan..

comel..comel..comel..

Hopefully..everything gonna be alright..

Based on experience..
klu ada apa2 b'laku kt kwn2 @ sape2 t'dekat..
accident ke, sakit yg perlu operation cpt ke..
baiklah bwk g hospital swasta klu mampu..
sbb kesihatn 2 xbleyh diganti..9t tggu turn punya pasal..
apa2 jd susah..mahal mmg mahal..klu mampu,
baik jangan tangguh2..

Wan sy dlu, sakit lutut..
pernah sekali time sakit teruk, kami igt dia
da nk meninggal..sakit sgt2 tgk die..
then, wt operation..da leyh jln n b'kebun..
alhamdulillah..kongsi2 duit family, wan dpt lutut besi!!
mmg beribu2 ringgit, sesak jugaklah dibuatnye..
tp dpt tgk wan seronok, bestnye~

Ada byk moral nie..korekla sndri..
Satu nk share, jom wat tabung keluarga!!
Seyes, sgt m'bantu..skrg kita lom kje, xyah start lg
pun xpe..9t da ade family n so on, so on..
wat lah..It'll never be a waste!

Oleh kerana sy xde tabung lg..
kan da susah hidup..my hp-kun is unhealthy~
..i'm so worried about him..
At the same time, it drives me 'crazy"!!

p/s: mne nk cri income?? klu sy jual plushies, ada org nk x??

Colourful commercial..Maki-chan

2011-02-12T01:20:00.004+08:00

Love the colourfulness..love the phone..
I want one!! Hehe..

The one n only you..

2011-02-12T01:18:00.006+08:00

Onee-chan..sukida!!!
i like the book that you read..
i like the path that you walk..
i like the pictures that you draw..
i like the room where you are..
i like everywhere where you are..
daisukida~~

STRONG enough??

2011-02-11T13:14:00.003+08:00

" You never know how STRONG you are,
until being strong is the ONLY choice
you have "

In love, NOT!! hehe..yes..

2011-02-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

Why suddenly everyone relate everything wif love?
Kt umah kne..kt U pun kne, dusshh..
blom 20thn lg pun..=p

At home..
everyone eagerly asked when is my 'turn'..
kne b'siap sedia utk m'hadapi bln November 9t..
need 2 prepare a collection of answers utk bidas
n jawab soaln2 cepu cemas dr mak2 sedara
secara professional..adoyaii~

At UTM..
huah! Korg da pandai nk kenakn sy ea?
(tirah, bee, fyfa ngan fara)
Seyes, diorang ni mmg nk kne ngan sy..
xbaik reka2 citer tau..kesian sy..=p

Nie citer yg sbenarnya:
Sy da jatuh hati kt SSF..
da pernah crush kt dye dlu tp sket2 je..
time cuti ari 2, sy gi melawat dye..
disitulah, b'mulanya bait2 cinta..Haha, huduh!
Nk gi melawat lg tp kne ada byk duit..
huhu...

Belief..

2011-02-10T22:28:00.005+08:00

Belief??
Did u ever believe in something? believe in someone?
Of course u do..i know, no one can run away from it..
If not, how can you just save your money in bank?
how can you believe food that u eat everyday safe
enough to be eaten while others cook it..supply it,
ha? ha? ha?..n 4 thousands of other things too..

Lately, there's some 'eye-catching' issues
related to belief or believing others passing
by my life..

What if you've believe in someone so much..then they 'betray' you?
What if you've try so hard to believe in someone..suddenly they break it?
What if you believe in someone but suddenly you waver about it?
What should you do? What should we do?

It's extremely frustrating when someone we believe lie to us..
it's so heartbreaking, kinda irritating..
When you're in shocked, u can't even cry..speechless..
it's like your feet were screwed to the floor..
something hammering you heart..n there's nothing in your head.
Is it true? Really?

Let's do our best not to let others who believe in us experience it..
I've heard a lot..'Believe in urself first b4 u believe in others..'

p/s: Learn 2 believe in me! Yes, I can DO it!! I BELIEVE!!

Watashi no Tomodachi..

2011-02-09T20:19:00.003+08:00

Sorry, i can't really remember our first meeting..
how we met n how we become friends, best friend i guess..
We are not very close to each other..I mean,
you have someone closer compare to me..
but something I'm very sure is that
we do have a similarity..

When something goes wrong..
things that pass through our mind is..
"Let's have a walk, jog or run.."
The satisfaction after reach targeted destination can't be described..
The ability to jog till then end do motivate..
no matter how tired u're, u hv to finish it!
no matter how far the destination still is,
u have to reach it!
If you're exhausted, it's okay to just walk..
It goes the same 4 our life, agree??

4 me..even though I've go 4 a walk, jog or run..
i will definitely still cry after that cz i clearly realize the fact that:
'How calming the path is, how far you jog, how fast you run..
you'll still have to face the problems/the challenge..
u cannot run away from it'

Anyway, mina-san..
let's run towards success, let's run together..
never leave me behind, i'll nvr leave you..insyaallah..
If i fall n scratch my knee..hold my hand n lift me up..
or give encouragement, it's more than enough..

I don't know how 2 make a promise..
coz i might break it..But as i said,

" If 1 day u feel like crying, call me..
I dun promise dat i'll make u laugh, but i cn cry with u.
If 1 day u wanna run away, dun b afraid 2 call me..
I dun promise 2 ask u 2 stop, but i cn run wif u.
If 1 day u dun wanna listen 2 anyone, call me..
I'll be there 4 u, n I promise 2 be very quiet....."

That's the things that i can promise,
insyaAllah i'll do my best!cz all of those are my profession..haha..
i can easily cry, i love run n i can be a very quiet person..

n never forget, i need u to0..

".....But if 1 day u call me n there's no answer,
come fast 2 see me..Perhaps, i need YOU! "

p/s: rambling tgh2 mlm..=p

It's all about us..

2011-02-04T04:03:00.002+08:00

I heard or read it somewhere..
I can't remember..

"How much u hurt depend on how much
u love the person that hurt u~"

Nobody hurt me..
but i'm hurt..

p/s: gonna miss everything..

Stay Calm..

2011-02-01T10:57:00.003+08:00

Take a deep breath..
to the deepest level u can take..
close ur eyes n exhale slowly..

Endure da pain..
cz it's a part of growing..
in order 2 become stronger..
stronger n stronger..
yoshh!!

Industrial Training...part 2

2011-02-01T03:22:00.002+08:00

This is juz a very short post on LI..
(suddenly feel like typing)

After being rejected by AOTD..
n no future respond from Meditop Corp..
I chose 2 proceed wif the 2nd phase of applying..
This time, i sent my application to Niosh and
Nuclear sumting at Kajang..2gether wif bee..
Hope everything will be fine..
4 me n others to0!
InsyaAllah~

p/s: hmm..bila nk smpai surat reject dr AOTD ni??
n ashita, going 2 hospital..

Maid Maiden..

2011-01-30T11:42:00.006+08:00

Dipagi2 hari cuti yg dingin nie..
b'semangat plak nk update blog..
pagi sgt ke?? xdelah sgt..nk tghari dah pun..

1. Komiku atau nma sbnrnya komik..
Maid Maiden ni ialah tjuk komik Kaoru yg latest slps
komik Helious Eclipse..utk org yg minat komik2 tmpatn,
sepatutnya mesti tau..hehe.. Disebabkan sy xminat novel,
sy suka baca komik..cz novel nie, agak time consuming kn??
i mean, satu novel nk abes ambil berhari2 utk org mcm sy nie..
kdg2 xabes terus..hehe. Sy suka komik tmptn, especially dr
Kaoru n Ben..hmm, komik2 dr jepun ok jgk tp byk sgt..

Apakah Maid Maiden nie??
maaflah, sy xpandai nk wat sinopsis citer..huhu..
tp citer die seyes best!! Sy paling suka Alexander..
kucing peliharan dalam citer nie..Nyan~
Komik nie b'siri, berapa byk pun xsure..
kemungkinan besar ada 7 cz dia guna nma hari..
kepada rakan2 t'dekat yg nk baca tp xnk beli,
bolehla b'bincang ngan sy..hehe..sekali selak, 20sen..
skrg dah ada 3 bku..hehe..

the first one..Maid Maiden-Monday!

the 2nd..Maid Maiden-Tuesday!
nmpk kucing 2?? itulah Alexander~

n this is the 3rd..Maid Maiden-Wednesday!

waa..best3..

2. New Maid at home!
After more than 5years xada maid kt umah..
lalalala..skrg ada 'maid' baru! hehe..sronoknye2..
Wah..habis rumah dikemasnye~ sampai abah kata,
" Abah baru beli 6pasang stoking, baru pkai 1..
5 lagi dahhilang..mna disimpannye ntah.."
dgn nama gurauan..
hehe..balik je dr KL, tgk2 ada 5 pasang stokin masih
ada label kertas Giant, basah..dijemur! Ake ni..
wat lawak r..

Ok, sy pun kne jd maid gak..
Ayuh kemas rumah..kemas bilik..
Penuh harta2 pusaka utk diselongkar!
Baju2 time skolah rendah pun ada lagi!!
Woah..xboleh dah simpan2 brg kngn byk sgt..
huhu..rumah bknnye stor~

p/s: siapa ada simpan tisu xtra yg die amik masa
makan time lawatan skolah2 dlu?? ada x??
mesti xde kn?..sy je kot yg wat cm2..

Me in Red!!

2011-01-29T10:42:00.003+08:00

Woah..merahnye blog!!
Oto-man dah bg respon..
dah agak dah..hehe..

huhu..serius malas nk tukar..
yg sebelum ni hijau sgt..

Dahla merah..
siap lep2 (love) lagi..
huh..ape2 je lah..

nmpak org pkai tudung merah??
that's me!!

LOL..gmbar ni masa 4cast dlu..
sy masih igt, time ni ngah wt exp psl
Refractive Index, lab Fizik..
khusyuk kan??

p/s: jom g KL..shopping2..
window shopping je..poket kosong..

Maafkan aku..

2011-01-28T17:04:00.004+08:00

"Maafkan aku..m'duakn cintamu.."
pernah x dgr lagu nie??
Mesti pernah, tajuknye Maafkan aku dr Ungu..
hehe..kat sini bkn nak promote lagu 2, cuma..
tiba2 teringat pulak..

*****

I have a friend..
A special precious little friend..
She is 16 years younger than me..
so0 cute n 'light'..i 'love' her..
i bring her anywhere i go..
i can't left her alone coz i might
make her 'cry' by her own..

We eat together..we sleep together..
we study together..we jog together..
she always 'by my side' no matter when..
in my laugh, in my smile, in my cry..
she 'help' me a lot..

But there's time i 'hurt' her..lately, i hurt her often..
Last few days, her 'commitment' towards me declining..
i can see how much she have 'changed'..
she's in 'pain'..so0 much pain..
n she's just 4 years old..

T_T
I'm so0 sorry..
i never meant to hurt her..
'they' always ask me 2 'leave' her..i can't!!
i don't know whether she still needs me..
but i still need her, for sure..
i'll do my best 2 be loyal..
till the last 'air' u 'breath'..
cz i like her most~

meet my friend..nokia2630..^_^

p/s: dia kemerengan sket + da kne bandage da pun..

Industrial Training..part 1

2011-01-21T02:13:00.005+08:00

My 4th semester..as a university student..
Next semester is going 2 be my 2nd last semester..
In between them..during the holiday ( 4 others ),
industrial students ( chem, math n phy ) will experiencing
their industrial training..n i'm one of them!!

1st step..
Kne sediakan resume..
pilih tempat nak apply..
n hantar surat..
(fakulti tolong..)

2nd step..
Wait 4 da company/organization 2 proses..
9t kan ketibaan surat di fakulti atau rumah..
atau mungkin juga email..

Klu diterima: Tahniah!! xyah pening2, risao dah..
Klu xditerima: Okayla..at least tahu xditerima, bley apply lain..
Tp klu xdapat apa2 maklumbalas: Adoyaii..jom calling2, tanya status!!

Saya?? I'm in the third category..
Itulah akibat xcall dlu sebelum apply..

***
Here's the story about the coward Madihah..
called the place that she applied 4 her industrial training..

Setelah m'dpt tahu xde surat diterima..
Tidak kiralah samada dirumah or difakulti..
Email pun xde..notification FB byk ler..
sy dinasihatkn utk call tmpt yg sy apply 2..
supaya klu nk apply kt tmpt lain plak, xclash..
Ok! saya kena call jugak..
so, dat i won't make things worst later..

Wed; 19jan 2011..
right after marketing class..
sy menggumpulkn seluruh keberanian..
m'cari no2 yg perlu dihubungi..n m'bina ayat
utk digunakan. Both English n Malay!!
Huah..semangat, nk tnjk confident time ckp 9t..

The first call..
4 Meditop Corporation..
After few times trying, no answer..
Huhu..jatuh semangat skit..
Time org berani ni, xdpt plak nk contact..

Proceed 2 da second call..
AOTD ( Advanced Oleochemical Technology Division )
under MPOB..if i'm not mistaken..(i shoudn't, right?)
Ada seorg akak ni angkat..very nice n polite person..
She volunteer herself 2 ask the person-in-charge
about my status..i need 2 wait 4 her 2 call back..
Tggu..tggu..tggu punya tggu..
saya t'tdo..

I went to AOTD..
Good news!! I'm accepted!!
What a relief..then they introduce me 2 someone..
She'll be the one in-charge 2 supervise me..
Right at that time..i was bullied!! LOL..
in front of my friends n other colleagues..
What a lark!

She ask me to do some simple things..
But i mess it all up..i keep forgetting her instructions..
Seriously~ what's wrong with me??
Then i got a phone call..
"Nie Madihah dr UTM td kan??".."ye saya.."
"minta maaf la dik, tiada tmpt utk adik..
kami dh hntr surat, dlm sehari 2 lg, smpailah."
huhu..sengal punya mimpi..

It's not dat i'm to0 dissapointed..
knowing dat i'm not accepted..
but that dream really gives me hope..
+ i've 'fall in love' wif that kakak..
huhu..so, i decided 2 sleep back..
Zzzzzz...oyasumi~

p/s: nxt step..call meditop again, find another place,
call, choose and repeat back step 1 n 2..
All da best rakan2 utk LI kita!! InsyaAllah..

The things I never dream of..

2011-01-18T02:43:00.002+08:00

Life is life..
I'm on my way 2 accept how life's work..
Through the journey..I waver a lot..

Nowadays, I think about many things..
Mostly about myself..what had happened to me..
There's time when I want to do something,
say something..something that i've been thinking..
But i didn't take any action n end up forget about it..
It's scary right?? Huh, i'm scared..

Lately, I often forget what i've done before..
4 example..this evening, I solve some sudoku's..
but during dinner when farah ask me about what
i did..i'm totally blank, as if i've done nothing..

Okay, it's enough 4 the introduction..
Introduction?? Too long n not related at all..

Today, i'm 19 years 51 days old..
I realize that there's many things
I never dream of n it's already happened:

Be inside a car, where my friends is driving..
going somewhere far or even to shopping mall together..

I will have my own money and spend it the way i like..

I'll be inside a cinema n karaoke box..

My family will grow bigger n bigger..

Fly to another country..

I can accept sushi..

etc..

I know, you too..
I mean..have many things that you never
dream will happened to you..
Because..That's LIFE~

p/s: i can't sleep..@_@

'Tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negeri China'

2011-01-16T22:07:00.004+08:00

Artikel ni bagi saya inspirasi utk tulis post ni.

Lgpun, bagus jgak..cz saya dah jnji nak wt post
pasal xperience saya masa cuti semester baru ni..

Jemputlah baca artikel 2 ea..
Selepas 2, jom dgr cerita pasal 'Winter in China'
dari Madihah plak..next post ea~

p/s: sila lah baca artikel 2..hmm, it make me
think..think..n think..

The 2nd Bridge..

2011-01-15T10:09:00.006+08:00

I can see a bridge..

right in front of me..

It is a wooden bridge..

once being used..

Today, i can no longer walk on it..

The path towards the bridge; closed..

***

I still can cross the river..
There's a 2nd bridge..
a bridge made from steel..

***

There will be a time..
when we can no longer walk
through the path that we usually use..

But, don't ever worry..
there always be another path 4 you 2 walk on..
just it might not be the same as the old one..

Extremely nice people do exist!!

2011-01-09T12:05:00.008+08:00

08/01/2011
My best buddies, k.tiqah, her bf n I..
went 2 Labis n Batu Pahat..by cars..
Our first destination was Air Terjun Sg. Bantang Bekok..
SubhanaAllah..I extremely in love with nature..
The smell, the sound, the view..the calmness..
Owh, I love everything about it..
It's a pleasure 2 be surrounded by nature~

It's been a while since I went 2 waterfall..
I'm so amaze with Sg. Bantang Bekok's waterfall..
It's quite equipped wif some necessary facilities..
It's also kinda clean n large enough 2 accommodate
a huge amount of people..
And da most important thing is..it's free!!
Hehe..=p

Our 2nd destination was BP Mall..
As a 'co-driver'..sorry dat I didn't help much..
I promise dat i'll be da best 'trolley driver' ever..Haha..
We went 2 BP Mall just 4 our lunch n buying gifts..
Some 'buah tangan' 4 tirah's n azizi's host family..

Without futher ado..
We straightly went to Kg. Parit Labis Baru..
(dat's da name..if I'm not mistaken)
where their host families live..
Huh, I can't tell how nice they are..
they welcomed us warmly..
like they already know us n know dat we'll come..
Hah..my exhilaration galore n I was deeply moved..
I'm gonna miss them badly~ huhu..
I already miss them actually..

Everything thanks 2 tirah..
4 inviting me n also others..
Like ur host father said, "Jgn serik utk dtg lagi ea.."
So, tirah..Jgn serik utk ajak sy lagi ea~

p/s: Ignore my bad english..huhu..
Klu nk bg advice pun xpelah..sila2~

[confession] Aku CINTA kamu selamanya..

2011-01-06T00:21:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah, aku terlalu mencintainya..
Cintaku terhadapnya terlalu dalam hinggakn aku
tidak sanggup dia melihatku begini..
Aku tidak pernah berani mengungkap cinta..
cintaku kepadanya..
Aku cuma yakin, dia tahu aku mencintainya..

Selama ini aku memerhatikannya..
Aku mahu sentiasa bersamanya..
Aku selesa berada disisinya walaupun dalam diam..
Namun, hari demi hari..aku sering melukainya..
Aku belajar jujur dengan diriku tapi tidak kena pd waktu..
Aku terus bersikap endah tidak endah terhadapnya..
Tidak mempedulikan katanya, hatinya dan
perasaannya..

Kini aku pergi..
meninggalkannya seketika..
Namun, hanya jauh dimata..kau tetap dihati..
Aku berharap, kepulanganku nanti membawa
kebahagiaan buat dirinya..

Terima kasih kerana lahir ke dunia..
Terima kasih buatmu, Terima kasih Allah..
Tanpamu, siapalah aku disini..
Owh, Ibu..Aku amat mencintaimu..

The person I love most..^_^
(ichiban suki desu..)

p/s: 05011962 was da day my lovely mom born..
she's 49 today n i'm nearly 20!! Hehe..

Azam 2011??

2011-01-04T00:18:00.002+08:00

Macam biasa..
setiap awal tahun, sume berebut2 wat azam..
selamatla wat azam xmcm hntr wish sms..
klu x, sure jam..asyik pending je..

Azam saya??
Orang slalu tanya klu jumpa awal2 tahun ni..
Maafla..saya dah xreti la wat azam..
Sebabkan, saya xpernah ingat azam sy..huhu..
2 yg bila org tanya azam thn sebelumnya t'capai x..
saya xpernah ada jawapan..
coz saya mesti dah lupa punyalah..
Hampagas tol kn..seyes memalukn..

Tapi skrg dah ada blog..
Mungkin blog bley m'bantu..
Bila lupa azam, leyh tgk balikkn..
Okaylah..tp skrg blom ada yg muktamad..
Stakat nie nk wat yg terbaik je dlu..
Gambatte!! Yosh~~

p/s: version malas..

The Last Train..never..

2011-01-03T22:54:00.005+08:00

Aku pernah berada didalamnya..
Aku juga pernah meninggalkannya..
Jauh, jauh, jauh...pantasku berlari..

Pernah kau melihat keretapi??
Pernahkah kau menaikinya??

Ia meluncur laju kehadapan..
Diatas laluan yang telah t'sedia..
Jalanku..sekitarnya dipenuhi bunga2..
Indah..aku terpesona..

Aku tahu..
Dimana aku harus berada..

Seseorang pernah b'kata kepadaku..
Hidup ini ibarat kereta..
Kita ibarat pemandunya..
Destinasi ada di'hadapan'..
Ada pelbagai jln ke destinasi 2..
dan kitalah yg berhak memilihnya..
Namun, disepanjang p'jalanan ada perhentian..
It's okay 2 stop, but don't take too long..
Coz life must go on..(ape2 jelah)

Apa2pun perumpamaan..
Yang manusia gmbarkn utk kehidupan..
Kereta, keretapi, kopi, air, rama-rama dll..
Asasnya tetap sama..
Itulah kehidupan..

Sesuatu yang Madihah xpernah faham..

p/s: Hehe..xpandai r ayat bunga2 nie..

Aikurushii..

2010-12-23T01:25:00.005+08:00

Klu nk tgk/dgr lagu nie..

tekan sini..

It's actually a song from a very nice

2005 japanese drama named Aikurushii..

[Lyrics]

Haru wo aisuru hito wa
kokoro kyoki hito
sumire no hana no youna
boku no tomodachi.

natsu wo aisuru hito wa
kokoro tsuyoki hito
iwa wo kudaku name no youma.
boku no chichioya.

Aki wo aisuru hito wa
Kokoro fukaki hito
ai wo kataru Haine no youna.
boku no koibito.

Fuyu wo aisuru hito wa
kokoro hiroki hito
no yuki wo tokasu daichi no youna,
boku no hahaoya.

[Translation]

The person who loves the spring
is surely someone with a pure heart
just like a violet.
You are my precious friend.

The person who loves the summer
is surely someone with a strong heart
just like the waves breaking rocks.
You are my dear father.

The person who loves the Fall
is surely someone with a deep heart
just like the poet Heins.
You are my lover.

The person who loves the winter
is surely someone with a wide heart
just like the thawing of the snow.
you are my dear mother.

Rebellious Stage of Mine!!

2010-12-23T00:42:00.005+08:00

Apakah??

Lately..

Nothing goes right..

Everything seems wrong..

Huhu..rasa cm nk marah je, x semena2..

p/s: kinda lazy 2 update blog..

I'm back!!

2010-12-11T19:58:00.002+08:00

Salam, everyone~

After few days 'menyepi'..

Here i come!!

Banyak mende nk tulis nie..

huhuhuhu..

p/s: keletihan ( fizikal n mental, hati pun~)

Goodbye Sarawak, Hi! Melaccca~

2010-12-05T18:01:00.002+08:00

Last few months..

I've planned to join a program..

n we are going to Sarawak!!!

4 about 10 days (22dec - 31dec)..

The exact 'gerak kerja' started on 2dec..

n it might end after 10days..

I felt kinda guilty coz i'll not be able to

join the 'gerak kerja' due to some other plan..

huhu..but then, i've also made some mistakes

dat make me felt much much more guilty..

So, i decided to ask whether i belong

to them (Jejak Budaya team)..

I should stay or leave..

n yesterday, I was informed dat

i'm one of the drop-outs..

Hmm..i'm happy??

or am i sad??

Honestly, it must be fun!!

but then, if I reflected back..

I belong to where i'm standing now~

I shuffle back my holiday plan..

There's wisdom in everything dat happened..

Yeayy~ I can join 'Keluarga HAJI OMAR' family day..

in Melacca on 25th n 26th of December..

My family's task is to think about games 4 sukaneka!!

Yeehaa..yehoo..hope everthing will be okay..

sukaneka is an important part on family day, right??

It might be da part where everyone remember most..

Konklusinya, let's think of something adventure n fun!!

It's time 4 my siblings n me 2 brainstorming..

(after abah gave us full responsibility) hehe..

Jya..that's all for now~

p/s: I'm going to Beijing today!!

6 hours to go..^_^

Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac / Dareka ga Watashi ni Kiss wo Shita

2010-12-03T00:26:00.009+08:00

It's a Japanese movie..

based on American novel by Gabrielle Zevin..

Just finished watching it..hehe..

I'm waiting 4 it since early of this year..

I'm glad i can watch it online..

after few months searching..

(of coz, it's 2010's movie)

What i like about this movie??

Hmm..how can i explain it..

There are lots of photography involved..

The way they use the camera n stuff..

soO cOol~~ it make photography looks easy..

xtremely interesting..hehe..

Picture captured..

The pictures are floating..

Besides, i like Horikita Maki-chan..

The main actress 4 this movie..

Not forget about the cute Tegoshi Yuya..

As they act as international school students,

they speak in english toO!! Many times..

[Tegoshi Yuya, Horikita Maki, Kenichi Matsuyama]

So, everyone..

don't forget 2 spend some time watching it..

U can watch it on dramacrazy.net..

I wanna watch it again!!!

and looking foward 2 read da book..

p/s: longest post name..

It's a pleasure..

2010-12-01T11:42:00.005+08:00

It's nice to be able to help..^_^

It will make you smile for the whole day..

yeah..experiences n mistakes do help a lot..

when you learn something from it..

it's a treasure that not everyone get..

at least, not everyone get the same..

I've done thousands of mistakes..

I've even done some same mistakes again n again..

I hope, I'll learn..from now on..

so that I won't regret later..

This is life..accept it!!

Remember!!

Never make the same mistake twice..

because there are so many new mistakes to do~

p/s: I've to learn how to take n face risk..

It's time to grow up!!

Avoid it!!

2010-11-30T15:02:00.004+08:00

世界でいちばん大嫌い!!!

If I write..i'll hurt others..

but if i'm not, i'll hurt myself..

it's okay right coz no one will read..

no one will listen..perhaps..

I should not repeat such things again..

again and again..

I wonder..

I should stop or not..

p/s: 私は誰にも資格はない..

私は多分、孤独なことに属している..

I really want to know! Is it right??

2010-11-28T12:37:00.003+08:00

Read This!!

" It's never to0 hurt when we know dat we're hurting

our own friends or our own friends hurt us..bcoz

true friends will always understand n try to

understand. It still hurt but not 4 long..

But! It's extremely painful when u hurt others

or others hurt u bcoz they might not understand "

Hmm..juz wanna know..

What's ur opinion??

p/s: Is it right?? or vise versa..

ur comment might help..

18 years have passed..

2010-11-27T19:30:00.003+08:00

Hah..i'm 19 already..

This is the first year i'm not at home..

I've been waiting of this day since i realize it..

Bcoz it's a new experience clbrating my own

birthday with my friends..i wanna know

how does it feels..

They cooked fried rice, fried kangkung

and 'sosej goreng capcicum'..resepi baru..

we have a picnic under a cute little pondok

beside farah's room..menikmati kegelapan mlm..

I got the smallest cake ever!! It's cocopie~

thanks 2 it's size, it fits my stomach well coz i'm full..

Then, they asked me 2 search 4 my present inside

farah's room..adoyaii, main treasure hunt plak..

Right after i get out from farah's block..

I saw them hiding behind da door..

Suddenly, i screamed..aaaaa!!! Sje je..

Masing2 t'cengang..LOL..

I saw a pail..So, I ran with all i might..

Owh tidak!! air apakah itu..??

I enjoyed chasing each other so0 much!!

I'm wet n stinks!! b'tambah bju kne basuh..huhu..

Anyway, thanks a lot..thx 4 da cute ice-cream cup~

With dat, i totally forgot 2 contact my family..

Extremely sorry~ lepas kne simbah tros kne m'basuh..

sampai lupa..hehe..ibu yg start hntr mesej, segan je..

'Just nice'..huhu, on 28th of November

I spend on whole day alone inside my room..

Study, study, study 4 da very last paper..

Symmetry n Specroscopy..study ker??

Seriously, i didn't study at all! I didn't lie..

Staring at da same page 4 one whole day,

then sleep..online..eat..packing..blablabla~

hmm..dunno how 2 answer tomorrow's paper!!

My heart; no longer here~

~~~~~~~

Now, speech of 19 years old Madihah..

Extremely thanks to my lovely parent..

Naemah Ismail n Zaidun Omar..

For this 18 years..that's amazing..

Because of both you, i'm here..

Raising me, take good care of me..

buy clothes 4 me, feed me..

Support me n Believe in me..

When i'm sick, stay up all night..

Worry about me..

Thanks 4 a wonderful family..

Thank you 4 every single things!!

May Allah bless you~

(there's a lot 2 say till dunno wat 2 say)

4 all my friends..

thank you so much to0..

those 100++ dat wish on Facebook..

i'm really excited dat i respond 4 everyone's post..

wink3..suka buang masa..haiisshh..

n da first person who wish me through da phone..

Nurain Abd Jalil, thx 4 da message..

That's all..xlarat nk pikir dh..

If i'm rajin enough, i'll make other post

about my wish..n others..later..

p/s: nk post cntik2 pun xlarat..huhu

lupa nk mention konyaku jelly!

blaja dr Nina..ping pong!!

Yesterday was fun!!

2010-11-26T15:33:00.001+08:00

Our 4th paper end..

1 more paper to go!!

and it's on 29th of November..

so, let's do something..

Lalalalalala~

Going to U mall..

by bee's car..

Watch Rapunzel together..

although we planned 2 watch Megamind..

Cooking n Eating Spagetti together..

Driving together..driving??

haha..athirah practiced 4 her driving license..

fyfa refreshing her driving skills..

me?? haha..baru nk belajar..

mina-san, arigatou gozaimasu~

p/s: it was totally fun!! Everyone must watch Rapunzel..

i like it so0 much..best, best, best..

Fall in Love~~

2010-11-21T22:34:00.006+08:00

At home 4 few days..

Cuti Raya Haji,

konon!!

Haha..in the middle of final examination..

boleh lagi b'foya-foya kt rumah!!

rse syg nak blik UTM awal~

home is da best place ever!! no regret, a bit..

cz dpt 'drumming' + 'keyboarding'..

Kt rumah banyak tgk TV..

haha..especially KBS (channel Korea)

As a result..i'm in love~~

[middle] Hodong from Ja Myung Go..

Lee Seung Gi..dia sgt baik~

2Days 1night..best!!

kyaa~~

p/s: aarrgghh, gedik plak!!

serius segan..huhu..

The real frustration??

2010-11-16T18:56:00.009+08:00

Final Semester Exam Story..

for most of the paper..but this feelings suit most 4

the second, Analytical Chemistry paper..

That feelings, just reminded me of

Nao-boo-chan from Dragonzakura..

Again!! Drama's influence..

"Half of it have been solved, then not a single answer..

for an exam, only the result dat matters..

the fact dat u did the best or not has no value..

(it's valuable in life but not for the results; especially when u failed)

I've understand dat i've lost..it can't be helped..

I only solved half of the questions..

it's obvious, i've done only stupid things for 1 year..

It's only been 4 days i've studied seriously..

but why, am i so0 frustrated?? really frustrated..

it's da first time i'm so frustrated.

but why am i crying??"

That's what Nao-boo-chan said..

I edited it a bit..hehe..

Seriously, i'm frustrated..

of course i should, right?? cz i studied last minute..

it goes da same 4 last 2 semester but this time

it's much much more frustrating..

because i'm more serious, perhaps..

Last 2 semester..

i studied last minute to0..

but then, aarrgghh..i don't know..

i can't remember well..

(xingat dah apa nk tulis..lol)

p/s: 1 more paper to go..x sabar nk dpt result!!

Puku-chan..^_^

2010-11-16T18:11:00.006+08:00

[watashi no namae wa puku desu..

hajimemashite..]

During my study week..

juz a few days before my 3rd semester final examination,

i got some headache..huhu..study, study n study..

i end up watching videos on you tube..

what videos?? hahaha..

It's a videos about how 2 make a plushie..

your own handmade plushie..kind of..

the idea comes from a TV programme i've watched

at home..not really programme, documentary i guess..

documentary about Nami Island in Korea..

in dat documentary, i'm interested in

a handmade cute owl..made from pieces of cloth..

So, i started to rummage some boxes at home..

looking 4 any suitable old t-shirts to make my own plushie..

There lots of old t-shirts to be use..yeeha!!

It's a lot of fun but tiring..of course..

I choose an unsuitable fabrics..

When u fold it, it's too thick to sew..it's hurt..

Although it slightly hurt my thumb..

I'm xtremely statisfied..

I wanna make a lot!!

p/s: why suddenly cannot move dat picto0??

Lihatlah dirimu..

2010-11-11T23:22:00.006+08:00

Teringat akan satu kisah..
Masa menuntut ilmu di MRSM dulu..
kami hanya seperti pelajar lain n kebanyakannya
xm oriented..belajar/struggle bila nak dekat xm je..huhu..
Buku + kertas bersepah-sepah..ada yg tidak hargai ilmu..

Pilihanku untuk ke MRSM dr SMKS 18, Shah Alam
(Aliran Arab) telah merubah diri ini..
Perubahan persekitaran sedikit sebanyak memberi impak..
Di Shah Alam dulu, sy tidak b'cakap dgn lelaki lansung!!
Namun di MRSM, segala-galanya telah berubah..
tapi Alhamdulillah, saya masih mampu m'jaga diri..

Di Shah Alam, persekitaran m'ajarku m'jaga diri..
Tazkirah setiap jumaat, pengisian antara maghrib n isyak,
nasyid setiap petang dan lain-lain..

Di MRSM, suasananya berbeza..
Pengisian antara maghrib dan isyak adalah masa
ulangkaji pelajar2 lower form..Mereka perlu mnympaikn
tazkirah b'dasarkan tajuk2 dalam buku teks 'Pend. Agama Islam',
ia peringatan ilmu2 yang telah dilupai..cuma adalah kadang2
tazkirah dari ustaz n tazkirah masa solat jumaat..

Saya bukanlah insan yang baik..
tapi sekali lagi alhamdulillah kerana sy dip'temukan
dengan insan yang baik2..Sahabat2 yang cintakan Allah..
Berada disamping mereka, mungkin antara faktor saya tidak
mnjadi seperti yang lain..b'tepuk tampar antara lelaki n perempuan..
ketawa ikut perasaan mcm orang xingat dunia dll..

Saya masih ingat akan kata2 seorang rakan sekelas.
Waktu itu, kami b'dua sedang makan tengahari, agak lewat
b'banding yang lain kerana ada urusan...
Kedudukan saya n beliau ketika itu masih jelas di ingatan..

"Orang yg xpernah couple nie, 9t bila dia
b'cinta..dia yang melebih-lebih.."

b'desing telinga ini m'dengarnya..
mungkin beliau b'kata demikian b'dasar apa yg dilihat
dan kerana beliau pernah/sedang couple..

Saya akui mungkin penyataan itu ada kbnrannya..
tetapi kena beringatlah..wahai insan2 single..hehe..
Saya harap saya tidak t'golong dlm kalangan mereka2
yg diperkatakn itu td..
Rakan2, sahabat2..doakan saya n kita mampu m'jaga
diri ini n sentiasalah m'berikn peringatan bahawa
diri kita hak Allah Maha Pencipta..

Suatu malam, kami (saya n beberapa org sahabat,
dlm 5 orang) pergi b'temu seorang ustaz di surau..
Tujuannya ingin b'tanyakan sesuatu tp saya xigt apa..
Saya telah diajak oleh salah seorang sahabat untuk
menyertai mereka..Alhamdulillah..
Ini mungkin nasihat yg terakhir dr ustaz spnjg di
MRSM kerana beliau b'pindah untuk tinggal bersama isterinya..
Ustaz menanyakan kami jika ada apa2 lagi..

Tiba2 seorang sahabat mengalirkn air mata..
beliau adalah seorang yang mmg agak pendiam..
kami yg lain agak kebingungan..kelihatan agak sukar
bagi beliau untuk meluahkan apa yang tersirat dihatinya..
Tidak lama kemudian, beliau bersuara..dengan nada t'esak-esak
beliau menutup sebelah matanya, lalu berkata

"mata ini milik dia.."

kami musykil..milik siapa??
beliau tidak pernah m'ceritakn apa2 kpd kami..
kemudian, beliau melihat tangannya dan berkata..

"tangan ini milik dia.."
"kaki ini milik dia.."

selepas itu, baru kami faham..

"mata ini milik Dia..tangan ini milik Dia..
kaki ini milik Dia.."

Ya! tangan ini milik Allah..mata, kaki, hidung..
semuanya milik Allah..ianya hanya pinjaman buat kita..

Buat diri ini n rakan2, ingatlah bahawa..
Kita milik ALLAH..x ada satu pun kita yang punya..
sampai masa kita kena pulangkan semula apa yg ada
pada kita sekarang ni kan??

Jagalah diri sebaiknya kerana ianya
adalah hak Dia..ALLAH yg Maha ESA..

p/s: Terima kasih, Ya Allah atas segala-galanya..

Yui - Laugh Away

2010-11-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

What was i'm looking for..

2010-11-11T00:28:00.007+08:00

When i was a young girl..
Hehe..not really, few years ago..
when i was 13++..i'm having a huge trouble
2 write my own i/c number when i've 2 fill any form..

It's just triple 'one'..9111 n blablabla..
I always make a mistakes by adding more 'one'
or only write two 'one'...as a solution, i need 2 count
everytime i write my i/c no..even until now!! Haha..

Since dat, i'm looking 4 whom
who born on 11th of November 1991..
because they need to write 5 'one'!!!..911111-**-****
If they were born in Terengganu, it'll be 911111-11-****
Waaahh..a lot lot more 'one'..=0

Today, 11th of November 2010..
I've found 4 of them..but no one from T'ganu, i guess..
Anyway..happy birthday 4 all of you!! ^_^

cake~

p/s: looking 4ward 4 their next year birthday..
[11.11.11] n they will turn 20!!

Hiccup.."hic..hic..hic.."

2010-11-09T12:49:00.006+08:00

I'm having a hiccup now..
it reminds me of Moon Jae-sin
from Sungkyunkwan Scandal drama..
so0 cute~ ^_^
[he will hiccup when he saw Kim Yun-hee]

Sungkhunkwan Scandal..

caricature of Moo Jae-sin

Okay, back 2 da topic..
I wonder why i'm 'hiccuping'..
why human hiccup or hiccough..
So, it's google time..

Wikipedia state dat..
Hiccup is a contraction of the diaphragm
that repeats several times per minute.
In humans, the abrupt rush of air into the lungs causes
the epiglottis to close, creating a "hic" sound.

I wanna know why i'ts happened to me..
i continue my reading..lalalalala..
jang, i found this!!

Causes:

After consuming carbonated beverages, alcohol, dry breads, or spicy foods.
Prolonged laughter or eating too fast are also known to cause hiccups.

Haha..exactly!!
Just a few minutes ago..i ate breads.
Dry breads?? I think da breads dat i ate
can be considered as dry breads..lol..

Yeay, i've found what i wanna know..

p/s: is it true dat hiccup can be reduced
by drink some water???

Setelah Aku Dipaling..

2010-11-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hampir aku hanyut kerana rindu
Pada harta yang pasti reput
Dan lenyap di sini
Hampir aku lupa pada yang Kekal
Kejahilan menyelubungi jiwaku

Sekelipnya mata hilang semua
Yang hanya ku pandang
Yang hanya milikmu

Yang hanya ku idam
Di dalam pandanganMu
Bersama mereka terdahulu

Sungguh aku cari cahaya itu
Untuk menyuluh kelam ini
Setelah ku dipaling
Sungguh aku hina menagih secebis
KeampunanMu setelah aku malu

Sekelipnya mata hilang semua
Yang hanya ku pandang
Yang hanya milikmu
Yang hanya ku pinta
Harapan keampunan
Hati ini telah ku lukai

Sebaiknya manusia Kau ciptakan
Hinanya angkara diri sendiri
Sedegup jantung terleka
Dibuai arus dunia
Selangkah kau menghampiri kehancuran

Sungguh aku cari
Cahaya itu
Untuk menyuluh
Setelah ku dipaling

Yui - Glory

2010-11-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

All da best, kawan2~

Ooh Tidak!!!

2010-11-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

Adoyaii..
cne nie..lappy kne virus..
klu xsilap..xbetul da die..
geramnye~

Extremely crazy!!
n i'm extremely stress..

Inilah cobaan..
Tabah madihah, tabah!!

Can i cry??

2010-11-03T17:10:00.005+08:00

Suddenly i wanna cry..
huhu..4 no reason..
lalalala~~

yesterday, i saw an aeroplane..
suddenly, my tears drop..
LOL..mengapakah??

p/s: Weirdo0O..

Permintaan Abah..

2010-11-01T10:40:00.006+08:00

"8 hari xjejak tanah"

sy suka ayat 2..

Hmm..lepas 8hari abah kt hospital..

30 sept da boleh balik umah..

petang 2..sy, abg me n aiman g jemput

abah ngan ibu kat SMC, Shah Alam..

Masa msukkn brg dlm Exora, abah minta knci dr abg me..

Ehhh, abah nk bwk kete..8 hari xjejak tanah kn..hehe..

Dalam p'jlnn pulang..

Abah tnye, "kt umah ada brg2 masak x?"

Alang2 dlm kete, abah drive ke pasar..

Membeli-belah time!! Teka apa yg abah smbar dlu?

Hehe..of course la tempe kegemaran..

walhal pd waktu yg sme ibu pun blikn tempe utk abah..

haha..kn da banyak..xpe2, smpai kt umah wt

Tempe Goreng Tepung a.k.a Nugget Tempe

Dinner mskn ibu, cm biasa mmg superb!!

tambah banyak kali..hehe =9

Ikan terubuk yg abah bakar..best..

Makan smpai ke cebisan tulang yg terakhir..

[hmm..naik la bdn klu time LI 9t duk umah..]

31sept punya malam..

x ada dinner formal cz tghari da mlntak habis2..

Ibu tnya, "nk makan malam x?"

xlapar tp xkenyang, klu ada mknn mkn je..

Tiba2, abah cakap "lempeng nk??"

bley jgk!! da lme x makan lempeng..

tp p'bualn kami t'hnti disitu je..

Sy yg tiba2 kelaparn b'ubah m'jadi ku**ng

Habis ikan bawah tudung saji..haha..

Xpasal2 suka meratah ikan..

X lama lps tu, ibu ajak wt lempeng..

hehe..tp time 2 abah da xde kt ruang tamu..

Ibu kata, abah da naik tidur rsenye..

kami pun memulakan operasi..

haha..xpernah wt pun, roti jala pernah la..

Ibu da lme xwt, brape tahun da ntah..

Malang tidak b'bau, pan xde..guna kuali pun kuali la..

Sbb senang punya pasal, yaa!! jom wt lempeng sesuka hati..

Haha..sgt klaka, kami xtau nk wt cantik2 cm kat kedai..

xpe la..jnji dpt mkn kn?? Ada yg sedikit hancur..

adoyaii, wat malu je..2 keping yg p'tama ibu tolong..

2 keping lagi..wt sendiri..

Lps da siap 4 keping..

kedengaran suara abah dr pintu.."Ni lempeng.."

Sy didapur, "aikk, abah g kdai ke??..Laa.."

haha..ibu suro abah bg sokongan moral kt sy

yg sdg wt lempeng dgn penuh kesungguhn..

Then, abah pun ajar cara yg lbih professional..

hehe..mmg sgt senang [aisshh, kanak2 tol madihah ni]

so, kepingan yg terakhir agak comey..i like~~

Jd, b'mulalah sesi p'bndingan..

..Lempeng buatan sendiri vs Lempeng beli..

Jeng3..jurinye adalah abah dan abg me..

Juri?? hakhakhak..

Abah kate, "ok la nie.."

Abg Me kate, "jgn bgtau yg mna satu beli,

yg mna satu buat..walaupun da tau.."

Selepas merasa, t'nyata abg me memilih lempeng

yg dibuat oleh adiknya..yeaayy..

Ibu pula kata, "yg beli tebal.."

Sy kata!!, "yg buat ada ranggup2 skit..xmuak"

sgt2 seronok..lempeng buatan Madihah n Ibunya

habis dulu!!

Hmm..ada gmbr tp 9t ea..

xdpt nk transfer lg..

hehe..^_^

p/s: jom wt lempeng lg!!

Yui - Tomorrow's way

2010-10-31T14:56:00.003+08:00

'Seniority'..

2010-10-29T13:55:00.003+08:00

"Kak Madihah, ...."
That is how they address me..
Who are they?? First year students..
Very funny n shy coz in terms of age,
most of them are older than me..hehe..
Eventhough i've told them, they are
already comfortable address me that way..

For those who born on da same year,
its seems okay..but 4 some dat 1
or 2 years older than me??
I'm da one who feel awkward..
cz i'm da one who should call them 'Kak..'

As a 2nd year students..
I can be categorized as a 'senior'..
More experienced??
We are just about da same..
you've more, perhaps..
cz u've 'consumed more salt than me', perhaps..
hehe..maybe, i've consumed more..
i've ate lots of salty food..XD

Life..

2010-10-29T12:49:00.004+08:00

I saw a guy..
move his hand in front of his phone..
My first impression was.."What is dat guy doing?"
Then, i realize dat he's 'talking' 2 someone
through his phone by video call..
He is mute..

google image..

He was smiling..
so0 damn cute..^_^

How does this related 2 da title??
Everyone have their own specialties
We are different to each other..
That is how life's work, right??
I already know it, i realize it..but then,
I don't know how 2 deal with it..

I should be thankful 4 everything dat i have..
We should be thankful 4 everything dat we have..
Thankful n Appreciate it!!

..ALHAMDULILLAH..

Appreciation..

2010-10-29T12:27:00.003+08:00

Thanks 4 calling..
Thanks 4 showing me dat u care..
Thanks alot..it is such a relieve..
even though i cry after dat..
cz i wonder, am i going 2 regret??
everything dat i've done..